Reflection on power

For more than a month now I have been mulling over and over the concept of power. What is it really? The question was almost an evil one to ask myself because it definitely sent me down a rabbit hole. This life has showed me power playing its watery nature out ubiquitously from day one. I think of it this way now because it is everywhere, our reality is immersed in the fabric of it. humans on one level or another are constantly playing for power with out even realizing what we are doing. This I am beginning to think may be a part of human nature and I didn’t always think so. I do rethink this statement constantly because for all of collective human memory we have been in this position. Submerged in a perpetual power play between forces unseen on a grand scale and what do you know the same drama plays out in our own lives daily. This constant tug of war between individuality and society; the individual and the powers that be in any given situation; the individual and other individuals. This being our reality I struggle with whether the capitalistic trait is due to nature or nurture.

The government asks for taxes, we pay and none of us have any Idea what they are to be used for unless you are smart enough to see the connetion between our country’s economic practices and its propensity for warmongering. Regardless of what we all want or need income and other taxes are collected faithfully and were blatantly confronted constantly with how much debt we’re in. We comply because we’re well aware that “they” have the power to take away our freedom. All of this serves to establish clearly in our mentalities where power lies. Everyday when you go out into the world you are being reminded of someone’s power over you. You walk the streets with the police who make you feel protected and watched over in exchange for your remaining in line and doing what you are told. Get “out of line” with a police officer and get a glimpse of the lengths people are willing to go to maintain an extremely fragile emotional state. That based on the illusion of power over others, over life, over things outside of ourselves. I have been told that I could be arrested for using the word fuck when talking to a police officer and I have been told to “shut up” at least 3 times in my life by police officers.

This does not make these people bad in my opinion, its their reaction to a structure they can’t even see. How should I expect them to react to me seeing something they don’t see and therefore acting in a way that they perceive as counterproductive and sassy? Then you go to work and feel the heel of the higher ups on your neck daring you to get out of line, your livelihood is leverage. This is where it gets deeper, each of them has a higher up leveraging their livelihood against them and so do the police. The reward being, getting the opportunity for release by exerting power over someone else and oh do we find release in that. Even romantic and familial love for most is a micro level recital of this dance fight for power. People are in love with others and vying for control of the person’s will rather than their heart. But truly is not even pure real love about 2 or more people handing over some power over their emotions to each other, are not all partnerships a power balance?

I suppose the way I’m seeing it right this moment is just that way. I do believe that we have always instinctually formed partnerships and groups. Natural power structures have always existed and I suppose that like anything else in life its a constant balancing act that produces success and longevity. Maybe power playing in some form is innate, the dance being ingrained in our very proliferating behaviors. I suppose in matters of love though my advice would be to give and give no regard to receiving power. I would never want to reduce my loved ones’ freedom even unconsciously, so I have resolved to only give my emotional power. That way I have no doubt anything I get back is real and especially for me. See power is an illusion because one will never have security in another’s love allegiance or loyalty and it doesn’t matter how we intimidate each other into doing what we want, that reality stands. Tactics are fragile because they are not capable of motivating behavior like pure emotions. When someone is loyal to you because thats what they want to do because they love you they will behave that way regardless of intimidation or your level of power in the world. The reality is the only power that is real is personal power, the power one has over themselves to be a person worthy of outward power these people are granted authority by their very environment.



Food love

I woke this morning to a message from an old friend, looking for a little help and motivation toward veganism. I thought this seemed like the perfect opportunity to do a post so here Is the advice I gave to her and an expansion on my experiences. Let me start by blowing your mind a little… vegan is only the shortest most efficient title for the way that I choose to consume food. If I’m going to the grocery store my haul will typically consist of various fruit, vegetables, a grain or bread sometimes, maybe beans, or sauce. This is how I maintain a very vegan diet. But I’m also something of a freegan and if somehow I’m receiving it for free that overrides strict veganism. I have no desire to ever bite into flesh again but I usually won’t turn down a piece of cake, I would never have a glass of milk but I might have a regular cookie if you’ve got them. I make killer vegan cookies by the way and this is what I’m getting at. I love cookies so I went out of my way to learn to make a just as delicious better for me version of them. We all have our things and mine happens to be the sugary ones, but I digress. I was extremely curious like many kids so slabs of meat were identified as dead animals early, its no doubt also a factor that I come from a place where I saw cows and chickens. It always felt cannibal to me because I do not recognize that big of a distinction between me and the animal. I continued to eat outside my ethics out of habit and familiarity until I was buying all my own food. I came to eat this way over time as is the way with anything in life. Not that I advocate this way over just picking a date and stopping everything because that works for some people. But for those whom it doesn’t it just makes you feel like a total failure when you make a slip up, sometimes not even your fault (examine canned soups and beans). My motives are of the do least harm flavor. I avoid participation in cruelty or murder and I simply do not consume flesh. The bottom line is do things at your own pace if you expect any change to take in your life. You are not a bird, you where coddled and gradually taught how to walk not pushed to the ground from the front porch. There is no reason that you or anyone else should treat you this way under any circumstances. Don’t freak out and wander off into paranoid delusions of having to choke down not seasoned uncooked veggies. Most sauces and seasonings are free of animal products and they taste just as yummy on vegetables. Many of the things people eat involving meat are covered in sauce or seasoning anyway thats really what you love tasting, so you can have those same things with veggies. If you are a stickler for the meaty texture of your food there are so many meat fill-ins such as seitan and tofu. Even if its flavor, a little knowledge of the human taste sensory pathway will help you feel like your missing nothing. The chemical glutamate is what produces the sensation of the meaty or umami flavor and the same chemical is present in many other things such as soy sauce. Cooked mushrooms with soy sauce produce a great meaty flavor that even the most staunch meat eater will appreciate. Try cooked mushrooms seasoned with soy sauce burger style and prepare to have your socks rocked. Finally there are no rules and our unhealthy obsession with the illusion of them has created this rigid all or nothing thinking that breeds a defeatist attitude for sure. Just go for it, whatever that change is that you want to make. Get over the fact that you will not start out perfect no matter how much you research. I believe the consequences of things we do in life will always be correlated to how we feel about them so it is vital that we appreciate ourselves for all progress and eagerly move toward more. Love and nurture yourself and everything will be better for you. The best thing to do with things like this is to just get started, a step in the right direction is a step in the right direction no matter how wobbly it is.

Please reach out to me with questions, advice, or just to say hey. Inspiration is what this is all about and I appreciate yours.