I am a spirit. I am sexual. I am creative and whimsical. I am many things and I don’t even count many of the things that others do when we meet. I will never accept boxes. I understand that we are all at different levels of understanding of self and therefore everything else but some things are just in poor taste. Don’t ask me how I have sex. This is what one is asking when they ask any question with the purpose of labeling my sexual expression. I am a sexual being that is all. Unless you are hatching a plan to have sex with me this information is not useful to you. In the case that you are, you are over thinking it. This feeling either happens or it doesn’t. I find it ridiculous that humans have found a way to divide into boxes over something as neutral as the sexual impulse. furthermore the presenters of such distasteful questioning are way ahead of themselves. We cannot certainly know a person’s gender reality when we watch them for a few moments in their whole life, to try to label their sexuality is an old dead joke. This must be checked because the mechanism behind what holds your boxes in tact are the boxes you put others in. What one labels me speaks to their state of mind not my state of being. I will continue to be what I will be. It is all very psychological and those who are not strong enough become what their box dictates. This creates immense frustration. We are sentient beings, we do not come in flavors. We come in different shades, speak different languages, and immigrated to different parts of the globe to just integrate again. We are all entitled to our choices so if you choose to rock your tag I respect that but don’t expect me to do the same for anyone’s comfort. ♥
Month: November 2014
Some words + some art
The thing is… shit happens and we have to pay for things. When I cannot I don’t, I do not pull my hair out. I simply and calmly do not pay and will calmly explain my situation to the collector. The key is we must do what we want to, what we have to and keep ourselves happy. Get naked and roll around in your freedom. It will give you peace when things are really crazy. Think about it, really focus on the idea of always doing something you love doing. When something bad happens it happens in the middle of, on the way to or in-between things you love doing. It is Marry Poppins’ spoon full of sugar and it makes the proverbial medicine go down. Sugar curbs the taste of biochemical bullshit and love curbs the taste of hard knocks. Love for life motivated by pursuing our spiritual agenda, doing things that make you feel like fuck yes I did that and its amazing! Do them now. There are traits ingrained in your character that have been there from the beginning these will point the way to activities that make you feel… alive. You were practicing them from the beginning because you were fresh from your vortex. Do not think of careers because they should just be an extension of these activities pursued based on passion. As more and more focus this way it changes the collective reality, the crown jewel and operating system of matrix technology. This is deactivating or crashing it and desperate efforts are being made. Fuck ebola. Can you confirm knowing anyone who knows anyone effected by ebola? Now donate to ebola has popped up everywhere all perfectly synched with the end of the slow boil fear campaign put on by the media. The game has been punch them in the stomach with horror and they will give anything, rights freedom money to be protected. That shit is played and paper thin.
Get money Ebola. Get love loves. ♥
Stop.
This great country’s government=gentry=corporation has been trying to recover slave labor since abolition. The truth is the construct of capitalism is so that it is designed around slave labor. The machine that this nation is now was built up on the backs of slaves remember? Oh but all skin tones are included now that there are no whips and chains. Yes white privilege is very real but also very psychological. Privilege to do what exactly? Slave a little easier or more comfortably? In this system free people are those who know they are period. This is all an experience and each controls her own. There are no boxes other than those we accept. Differences are intentionally played up and subconsciously reinforced as this is highly divisive. “Privilege” with other devices such as nationalism patriotism classism sexism other forms of racism and probably other isms keep us distracted with kicking each other’s asses and not opting out of the game. By the way war is extremely profitable so are prison higher education and more and more grade school. Things are set up so that your existence earns someone else money=power one way or another from beginning to end.
The construct is designed to maximize profit while minimizing expenditure. Think of what these expendatures are… they are things like wages, benefits, safety upgrades, proper waste disposal and conservation efforts. The key is getting us to work for as free as possible so that the money goes straight to the top. To the owners CEOs and whatever other letter combinations. I’m sure most would agree that it makes since that the closer one is to ownership of any business the more said individual should earn of the profits. This makes sense but what doesn’t is the idea that these people should continue to make more and more into perpetuity at all costs to everyone else. This though is built into the corporate law (corporate=law) structure. Stop sit for a minute and really process this idea, you will feel it is ridiculous. everything is cyclical. These numbers that are thrown into the news with 10 20 30 zeros are nonsense. Where do you know of numbers this high existing? In the media and therefore in your mind. No one has seen that many anything in existence. The reality is the paper money is for paper flemsy products after the essentials which we realize are quite few basic and still affordable or free!
There is an abundance of completely lab created food with no nutritional value and medicine full of chemicals with the effects of who knows what for an array of shit diseases caused by said processed mystery matter. A system of distraction based on mental conditioning honed to make us believe we need more than the essentials. Conditioning that makes a name worth anything more than the cost of the materials and some for everyone who had a hand in making the named product. The bottom line is logically no shirt costs $5000 dollars and those made of materials that require the price are pieces of art that maybe shouldn’t be crapped around in at the club. People began creating products just to have something to sell and it followed that a market had to be created for these products. How does one create a market for something unneeded? Make people think they need it… marketing.
The plan works like a charm, it’s ingenious really. Distractions and distortions are set up everywhere and we live under an incessant latent fear. A nagging that our lives are somehow threatened by not having enough snacks, a relaxer, being able to get fast food, being able to watch tv, or eat meat everyday and many at every meal. This is not natural. But this is what more products than people looks like… bigger and bigger people who barely live on more chemical products created to earn pharmaceutical companies hefty profits. Then they die and earn a pretty penny for the people who stuff them and put them in those obnoxious overpriced boxes. Everything is cyclical. Money money money. The thing is the power players of old are the same ones as here because that kind of grip maintains its self through generations. These are dynasties. Being comfortable is great it is something that we all deserve. It does not take great wealth to accomplish this in any system. There is no motivation to have a trillion dollars but power and control. Stop. Focus on your motivations. Connect with your deepest agenda here and push forward. There will always be distractions until we collectively ignore them.
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Fulfilling
The growth of my hair has been a part of my spiritual evolution. How can any sort of growth as a person not be connected to one’s hair? It is the story keeper in a way. I was told by a client once that it is their spiritual belief that hair is connected to intuition and this is why they had abstained from cutting their waste length hair. I also know of information that suggests better odds for long haired warriors. I know that I was meant to have long hair. I always admired and coveted hair even as a kid I would pretend because the only thing I knew was short hair. I don’t think I ever really thought to assert my individually and refuse haircuts but I somehow always knew they were not right for me. I hated the atmosphere of the barber shop and ussually didn’t like my barber much because all he seemed to know anything about was football and tits, neighther of which I gave a shit about. I realize now that I also found the experience mildly traumatic. Here I had this person who I felt no connection to posing my head back and fourth with their hands and buzzing away my glory with a piece of small machinery. No one was trying to truamatize me or even turn me into something I was not at the deepest level of intention. But we do live in marlboro man country and the consensus was therefore “you gotta cut that boy’s hair”. It’s interesting now though how as my hair gets longer and longer I feel more natural and at home in my own body. I realize that this is how I always saw myself inside my mind. I say often that time is an illusion and this is just another example of the truth of this for me. I knew as we all know what we are from the beginning, including something that seems as trivial as how we want to express ourselves physically. It is all a part of being built to fulfill our purpose. I have been blown away by the little intricacies that I have noticed built into my being that are fine tuned to fill a purpose I never knew I would need to fulfill. That is the thing though, it is not that I didn’t know I just didn’t remember that it is so. I am here to change the perimeters perceived around many things such as spirituality love gender and sexuality. The major clue that this is something to be remembered and not learned is that these things I have grown out and grown into such as hair where connected to impulses present from the beginning. On a very superficial level the strands were there since they started growing so every time one looks at his hair from root to tip they are looking back over time. I feel as though I have learned lessons quicker and cultivated a more well integrated presentation of all the aspects of my being since I rejected hair cuts. I have also seen some more experiences so there is no way to know if I would be in the same place mentally with short hair. I can almost assure you that I wouldn’t though because for me there was a connection to my hair but the experience is based on something much grander and comes in different forms for us all. It is blossoming, fulfilling.
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The Healing Mermaid 