Card of the day.

5/31/20 Today we are keeping our emotions squarely under ourselves. Keeping a lid on the way we really feel perhaps because we feel it safer to do so or we don’t want to hurt others. We may be doing this by way of putting on a brave face or by wearing sort of a mask, showing others one set of emotions while hiding another. Subconsciously we are feeling respiteful our thoughts are those that give us peace however we are creating that feeling. We may be drawing on the past, being in this peaceful state because we are informed to capture this feeling by past experiences. We may also be in this state because we are aware of information currently that gives us great peace. This should be a faboulous day for meditation or other spiritual practice if that is what one likes to do. It may also be a great day for projects not in the sense that we will likely be anymore creative but that we will be feeling more reserved and have more space for such things. We may be doing some work getting to the bottom of our feelings and learning about there drivers as well. We will likely not be as able to be nuturing and protective as usual because we need to deal with ourselves most. This could also manifest as us not being sure how to channel these feelings or where to direct our desire to be there for others in these ways… Here is mine… I love you all, these are crazy and hard times with all that is going on and I know we are all grieving but we will get through this. We simply have to stand together devide and conquer strategy is not working this time because we are and I am so proud of us.❤

Card of the day

Today we might become aware of an opportunity, some kind of new beginning. This could come in the form of a job offer an interview or just finding one that we want. This could actually be a new beginning of any earthy kind. In our subconscious mind we are managing that feeling of lack consciousness that many of us are familiar with. This idea of lack lingers there in our subconscious because somewhere in our past we got the idea that we won’t have enough. This kind of feeling can cause us something like spiritual fatigue, feeling sort of battered by life. Although we know in our higher mind that we can always flow into peace and find our sustenance right under our nose. We may be questioning our spiritual control or the power of our will. Maybe wondering if we have that fire we need to push our aims forward. Remember the peace that comes from accomplishing your goals and this will propel you forward.❤

Card of the day.

Today we are sitting in our abundance. Even if we are dealing with some disappointed emotions we are moving forward with our aims and seeing the earthly fulfillment we have been working or planning for. We have experienced some dissatisfaction in the arena of our finances and our emotions recently. Our will has been thwarted by circumstances for a while but we now feel those psychological blocks lifting and we are more action oriented because of it. Today could strongly feature an authority figure, someone who provides for us such as our husbands fathers or employers.❤

Give even wealth distribution a chance (heated)


I came across this yesterday as I have been following the financial situation a bit closer than the viral outbreak itself since a failing economy is easier for me to swallow than all the doom and gloom death mongering. It got me thinking though about these sort of events and other events that I believe to some extent are experiments to see how we react as a species. Now lets back up a bit here incase you don’t know what I am talking about there have been covert experiments done on humans for decades. The most memorable to me are the Tuskegee experiments taking place from the late 30s until the 70s or the other eugenics experiments taking place around the same time in North Carolina involving sterilizing women on welfare. Basically there was a eugenics campaign aimed at reducing the number of colored people in this country that seems to have been implemented around the 30s. Of course there where experiments that we still don’t know about that happened then and we would be foolish to think there are none happening now especially when I can speak to you from personal experience of having the same “voice of god” weapon used on me that was used to subdue the Iraqi army around 2007. I also remember hearing reports a few years ago about immigrants just suddenly leaving for there home country with nothing and it just looks eerily like what happened to me in RI where due to the extreme mental anguish caused by this technology I did the same thing.

So with these covert experiments, why not just let us in on them? Our culture in this country is experimental and youthful we are one off the youngest countries in comparison to the others having only existed under our current government for a few centuries. I have sensed like so many others before me that the capitalist system might not be working for us as well as they pretend it is. Choosing to put on elaborate shows for the public, gerrymander voting districts, starting wars and doing all kinds of other egregious bullshit to steer world events and maintain this dumb ass illusion of power. The bill proposed in this video makes me think of a more even wealth distribution created by law like mmm communism the dirties word ever spoken to WASP boomers and back to the founders of this government. My thought… is WHY stupid? We gave capitalism a try and now a few of these crooks and there progeny have most of the wealth while most of us struggle to catch up and keep the bills payed. I understand how those with the money and power might not care, but that would be why the economy keeps tanking hobbling back to life then tanking again. So I propose that we take this bill and make it an experiment in communism for 5 years or so. If we don’t like it we can always go back or try something different like a blending of the two. Because if we could keep our shit stable over here then we can stop spending so much on bullshit operations to watch and keep the rest of the world from coming up. Times change and it is ok to have another world superpower or none. Most of us on the ground are not power hungry enough to care as long as we are secure and healthy. Basically a bunch of old sad clowns are scared shitless to not have the most money anymore. Perhaps lets try unity instead of competition idk that might work out better.


Wow that’s a big ass burger!

I just had a real life fit tonight. I mean I got so triggered while watching youtube videos. At the end of my musical selection a commercial came on about the McDonald’s big mack and all its variations. My eyes scanned the screen while I was lazily listening to the narrator gush about this classic American meat tower but they stopped at the last sandwich on the screen in shock. I counted not the normal 2 not 3 but 4 beef patties on the sandwich. I was floored! I tried to get my mind under control as I thought about all the implications of a burger with 4 patties on it being served to people who know nothing about nutrition. All the people struggling to control there weight and can’t figure out why because they know nothing about how dense and therefore tougher meat is to digest… 4 patties! All the people suffering from heart disease or high blood pressure because they don’t think of the amount of animal fats in food before they eat it. I thought of all those dead cows and all the waste. I have seen people feeling bad that they can’t beat their health problems because we can’t get around being comforted by food. None of us can control how we are trained to nourish ourselves in childhood. None of us can control the psychological programming that comes with getting snacks and unhealthy food for being “good” , or the association this sets in our minds of bad food with good feelings. I cried. I’m upset because I feel it is wrong and dangerous to play on this irresponsibly! I understand about the wheels of business and that marketing must exploit our desires or our insecurities to some extent. It just seems reckless excessive and like a big fuck everybody’s health to me and that makes me sad and a little mad. we can’t stop people from eating what they want or hold any restaurant responsible for what their patrons eat but wow they also don’t need to serve people 4 meat patties on one sandwich on a refined grain bun and loads of sauce. It is wholly unnecessary and unhealthy so why give people the that overblown option? I’m know they are making plenty money on the regular super calorie dense Big Mac.

What it is like to live in a car.

Talking in depth about what it was like to sleep in my car for 6 months. It was some a very humbling experience through which I learned a lot about my self and my environment. This was not an ideal experience but I learned things that I could have learned no other way. This is all information about how I managed and some things I learned along the way.